Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Feeling Nervous

Well I am officially one week away from entering LIFE and have begun to get nervous. Not so much about the program, because I was in the Marine Corps, and nothing can compete with that boot camp. I more nervous about the program not working, and the weight not coming off as much as I would like. I'm also real nervous about when I am done in such a structured atmosphere how will I react back home.

If I manage to lose all the weight that I am going to push for, the last thing I want to do is end up in the same place that I am now a year down the road. The LIFE program offers once a week counseling, but I think I'm going to need more. I need to understand better what makes me eat the way that I do. It is a question that I have not truly been able to answer, and one that I have had enormous struggles with for almost my whole life.

I cannot afford to fail this time around, I am running out of options. I am looking at a major heart attack probably by 50 if I don't turn things around soon. I just hope it is not to late to get my life on track and turn around the damage I've done to my body already.

Now back to reality. My wife and I went on a bike ride yesterday afternoon, it was good for me, not so good for her. She was not prepared for the hills and it took a lot out of her, it was the same reaction I had the first time I did that ride to. She was not feeling to well by the end. I, on the other hand was feeling great, I could have gone again, which is a great sign for me.

I am going to try to lose 10 pounds in this next week to try to get my body moving in the right direction entering the program. I am also going to push my cardio to hopefully get better prepared for next week also. I'll ride the bike at the gym tonight and also do a little treadmill work.

It is coming down to crunch time, the program was fully paid for this morning so no turning back now. I just need to book a ride there, I need a big SUV with all that I'm going to be taking. I'll have my bike, my rowing machine, and tons of clothes because I'll be changing 3-4 times a day. Should be fun.

Well I am going to run for now. I appreciate you all taking the time to read my blog, and sending in comments. Talk to you tomorrow.

12 comments:

  1. Of course you are nervous! But it's so great to see that you are taking this chance. Good luck in your first week!

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  2. Chris, it's okay to be nervous. It sounds like you really want this and that's why it will work for you!! Good luck, we're all pulling for you!

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  3. I think it's completely normal to be nervous before something as big and life changing as this. Oh, wait, that probably didn't help, did it? LOL. Sorry! It's okay to be nervous. You're going into this with the right frame of mind and really really want to make this work for you...so I see no reason why it won't. Good luck!!!

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  4. Holy Cats! I was JUST saying to a friend of mine that someone should open up a private Biggest Loser-esque ranch where people could change their lives sans the whole nationally televised drama. Apparently, they already have!

    I'm excited to hear about your experience and cheer you on!

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  5. you can do it! try to just concentrate on one day at a time and don't worry so much about the future (I know that easier said than done!) good luck!

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  6. my best too you ,you will do fine,i look forward too following along with you

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  7. Nervous! Thats good! Fear can be a good element to success. Is because we fear we would end up like before that will strive us to go forward. I see you are taking the initiative. Congrats. If you need additional support you can consider participating a small activity called Project 31. Project 31 is my way of showing support for people who are trying to make a better change in their life. You can take a look in my blog. Good Luck to you!

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  8. Good luck Chris!! You're going to do just fine! You have the right mental attitude and you know that this is a life changing experience, one that's got nothing to give but good outcomes!! I'll be following you every step of the way. Thanks for following my blog too, I've got you as an inspiration now! xxx

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  9. Good Luck. What an amazing amount of courage to put yourself out there and do this. You are obviously ready to get this weight off for good, so no doubt you will get this done!!!

    Thanks for reading my blog!!! *S*

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  10. Thank you for following my blog and I wish you tons of luck.

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